It was a house plummeting through the night.
At last I had a home. A place
to stay, my own, a different place
from the hideous roofless pesterings, the appearances
and disappearings that never let me alone.
It was a house collapsing into itself.
When I’d swept all the floors, caulked the cracks,
dusted the picture frames and rubbed the cheap
glasses brighter than crystal, nothing needed
to be fixed ever again. I could walk from view to view,
and any shifting of a figurine in a room
was for a slightly other beauty.
It was a house all alone in a wood and meadow
among unpopulated hills ringed in by cliffs
snowy in the summers. Twenty steps to the door
and I could shut away the sirens
of a minute ago, rusted knives and needles in gutters,
the shouts and threats or starving-dog
indifference of the beggars.
It was a house mine alone
where I could think that if the one I love
came home…I would know
at last how to be with her. My failure
was a happy moment
recalling, expecting, in the great continuance
of being together.
A. F. Moritz’s most recent books are As Far As You Know (2020) and The Sparrow: Selected Poems (2018), both from House of Anansi Press. In 2015, Princeton University Press reprinted his 1986 volume in the Princeton Series of Contemporary Poets, The Tradition.
This poem was originally published in the digital edition of Vallum issue 18:1 Invisibility.
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